Archive for May 14, 2010


Posted: May 14, 2010 in Uncategorized

Just heard a love story from Class 95, although tonight was not love story, it was like a sad broke up story. Somehow after i heard about his story i felt sorry for him or rather will feel sad with him. I like the last part he wrote in.. Not every relationship was the fault from the men, and sometimes the man just want to know the truth and doesn’t like the feeling of being betrayed or being treated like a fool til he was the last man to know when the whole world knew about it, Paul was just such a guy who put in so much and was just so much ‘injustices’ happened to him but in love there were no right or wrong anyway 😦

I feel like writing how his story but some sort of feeling pull me back from writing it maybe i am too tired to write it out, actual plan was to write some reflections from these 2 days, i was thinking what happened to me? What was I thinking? This road have been gone so long, enduring 2 difficult moments and now it should be a smooth sailing sea but somehow the current was just too strong for me to react, maybe I always prepare to face the worst rather then to work it all til the worst really came upon me. But I believe that in life, you just put in your effort and hard work to it, no matter what’s the outcome you will not be regret. Maybe some occasion i was thinking why this could happen to me? i could just enjoy a happy carefree life and rather then making myself feel so devastated when i read about your news, sometimes i will know that now is really the time to let it go, let it go and who knows that letting go might not be a bad thing or may be a good things to work out for the both of us.

Problems arise when Positive thoughts is < Negative thoughts , positive thoughts makes us go longer and gave us the morale to put 100% of effort in the competition but when negative thoughts starts to knock our heart, we tends to lose hope, lose faith and lose the courage of continue to walk through the dark forest. But we can’t expect to have all the positive every time because there will be a time when the sun will fall to dark. What i was trying to explain is that sometimes is not that i have more negative thoughts then positive but its the true hard facts that is drowning me into the sea, my feeling was just like Paul, we just need to hear the true and we don’t wish to be a fool in the web of love.

Maybe from the past relationship that happened to me, a guy that cross into a relationship and thus making that relationship into a failure, which will gave me a phobia to go into love again especially knowing the girl was in a relationship, i don’t like people to cross into people relationship and of cause i will not be an idiot to do this type of things that’s why it makes me like to retreat more then to going forward towards a girl, and of cause know whats the limit of me, im not a rich guy, im not a handsome guy, im not a guy who can give a security to a girl, but im definitely a guy who could gave his everything to the girl he loves. Maybe this is call foolish maybe this is call stupid but at the end of the day people will only say love is blind love is foolish love is stupid and blah blah blah…

Maybe im destined not to have such a good girl in my life, maybe god don’t want to give me such a good girl or is there a better girl out there for me to grab? no one knows.. but at least i hope to know from god is that , if there is really no ending, please let all these suffering ends. A storybook without an ending is not a storybook anymore, a movie without an ending is not a movie anymore, a love without an ending is not call love anymore. And here im done with my bullshit yet again.

Love is a simple 4 words yet a thousands and thousands meaning towards the word. A song to end this tired and dreadful day. Goodnight everyone 🙂 . TGIF tomorrow.. a good day to plan for a night-out with the person in your mind tonight right? Yes i hope so…

Better In Time

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile ’cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I’ll be fine without you
Yes, I will