I’m just the benchmark, not the perfect one.

Today nightmare was quite horrible, until i forget to bath and change my clothes and just go out like that to see her, i don’t know why.. is it the inferior of me inside or really the low self esteem or i am thinking too much? Guess that’s super not what i needs to do.

I just hope to be the one, if i’m not the one, at least give me another one.

Rest and sleep to recharge for another boring week.